Hi everyone. Or anyone.
I’ve been hibernating over winter. Sulking really. I always feel a bit SAD through winter but that aside, this year in general hasn’t turned out to be as much fun as I’d hoped. Health wise (nothing life threatening), life wise, world wise and friend wise it’s pretty much sucked and I let it in turn suck the motivation and energy out of me.
It all started when we got back from that three-day cruise in March and discovered that our business partner and supposed friend of twenty-five years had tried to shaft us with the aim of leaving our business shut down and us unemployed. It’s practically impossible to find full-time work here if you’re over fifty but I was surprisingly unconcerned about that, I was more upset about the back stabbing friend. I seem to have picked some clangers over the years. In fact if you see a book on the shelves titled When friends turn out to be arseholes, I probably wrote it. Anyway it was a pretty stressful and disappointing three months and it made me all bitter and cynical and then the world turned to shit and I seemed to be at the doctors every week and yadda, yadda, yadda I didn’t just want to be here bitching and moaning and complaining all the time.
Well I probably did but I’m trying not to complain. I started doing this 30 day challenge where you can’t complain or criticize anyone. It’s terribly hard but it makes you realise how many whiny needy bastards are out there; honestly people never stop complaining. The idea is that you put a band on your wrist (I just use a hairband) and if you find yourself complaining or criticising you have to put the band on the other wrist and go back to day one and start again. I started about three months ago and I’m still on day one. I think the only way to get through it is to just not talk at all.
Anyway Spring has arrived and I’m sure people somewhere are counting down the days to Christmas so I’m just waiting this year out and looking forward to a happier, healthier, complaint free one next year.