I think I have some sort of chronic fatigue. Or maybe it’s haemochromatosis, or diabetes or a brain tumour. Seriously, if you google – constant tiredness – the possibilities are endless. But I have been bone weary tired and as soon as I finish this semester at school I’m going to get my iron levels tested because my mother has some freaky haemachromatosis gene combination that I’m a carrier of and, well to cut a long boring story short, it’s probably not even it.
I think I’ve just had enough of this year. Why is it that as soon as you think you can do something for yourself the universe lets you know in no uncertain terms that – fuck you, it ain’t happening.
Or at least it ain’t happening easily.
it doesn’t help that the TAFE I go to is a kind of soul destroying place. Lots of grey paint and grey carpet, cracked windows and broken blinds. There is one room that is particularly depressing. Every time I’m in there I feel like jumping out of a window. Thats if I could open one of course. You’d have to throw a chair through it first.
There is not one thing in this room. Not one thing on the wall, not one book. Just rows of tables that wobbble when you try to write on them and plastic chairs. I feel like a demented autistic five year old when I’m in there.
And I have massive exams and assignments happening for the next three weeks. See this course used to be a two year course but the government in it’s wisdom decided that we could do it in one year. So it’s pretty full on. One assignment I have to do is to invent this library in Western Australia and then design a website for it. Full bells and whistles. And in another I have to invent another library and they have a staff of dysfunctional people and I’m a consultancy group who has to come in and do mediation and counselling and whatever bullshit. And I have to do Myers-briggs personality tests on six people and put together a 30 minute power point presentation on how I’m going to make them work nice. Then I have to dress up in a business suit and present it to the class. Good lordy I have made them all so awful it’s almost put me off working in a library. Alcoholics, cheaters, introverts, non english speaking staff members. And then there’s cataloguing and the Dewey Decimal System and Library of Congress Subject Headings. Did I mention I also have the searching databases exam and the advanced microsoft word exam next week?
Look at me, haven’t I turned into a whiny bitch!!
It’s not all bad. it’s SUMMER!!!!!!!! And in three weeks time I’ll have two months off.
And whenever I feel like a whiny bitch I just listen to Goyte and I do feel Better.
I have no idea how to put a song on here sorry. So I have to go to youtube where there is no actual clip. So just….. I don’t know turn the screen off and just listen to the sound.
You can’t stop your self from dancing.
Just another Aussie being awesome.